Feb 11 2008
What was I thinking?
You know how sometimes you really really want something but once you get it turns out that perhaps you did not want it so much after all? Happens to me all the time. Probably a sign that I should run my wants by a committee of level-headed people before escalating them to “really really want” status.
Case in point from a couple years ago: it was all fine and well to want a bigger house, but now that we have it, turns out that not only does it (a) comes with a bigger mortgage, but also (b) costs more in electricity/gas, (c) is a pain in the ass to keep clean, and (d) keeps needing maintenance. And seeing as the housing market tanked right after we bought the bigger house, we are kinda stuck with it for a while.
A much more recent case in point: wanting another baby was all fine and dandy, but turns out that “first trimester sucks ass” + “already having a three year old and a 1.5 year old makes things a lot harder” + “feeling like crap all the time for weeks at a time can really get to you” + “not having the energy to do anything is not helping things any” = “wanting to have more children was a really dumb idea.” Hindsight is a beautiful thing, but at 12 weeks pregnant about the only option I have is diligently applying myself to inventing a time machine, and praying that real soon now I will be able to function like a somewhat normal human being again.
So, yeah. Be careful what you wish for, you just may get it.
4 Responses to “What was I thinking?”
I feel your pain girl! :-) Congrats by the way! I didn’t know you were expecting #3. I hope you start feeling better soon. At least with that bigger house, you know you have enough room for another munchkin. :-)
I feel so bad for you. I just can’t imagine being in your situation. Heck, after one of A’s tantrum’s, I can’t figure out why I want a 2nd child. I really can’t imagine not feeling well and having to deal with a screaming, Lego-throwing maniac of a child.
He’s hoping that your 2nd trimester is much, much better than the first!
Congrats on lil’ # 3 :) More adventures in the WeaselOfDoom house…
Well I think we really did need a bigger house, or atleast a house with more than one bathroom.
I can’t immagin living in the last house with 7 people, and only one bathroom. Also the comute time for me was around 3 hours a day, that had to change.
And I would say that you are acting way more human as of late. :-)
On the bright side the kids are starting to sleep through the night.