Jul 06 2010
Sad
I spent the evening sorting kids’ toys. There are lots of toys to go through, and looking at all the baby ones made me so sad, because it is highly unlikely that we will have another baby. And I know that I am barely staying sane with three, that we can’t afford another baby, that it is just not a good idea, and yet… I am typing this and crying.
7 Responses to “Sad”
*hugs* It’s hard to let those things go. I got rid of a lot of baby stuff this year. In a way, it felt good to get rid of the clutter, but at the same time, it’s hard to say goodbye to all those sweet baby memories. Wish I could give you a real hug!!
See, it’s been easier for me somehow because I don’t have to get rid of it. Since Leigh is talking about someday having kids, I get to keep my stuff in the hopes that it will get used again.
But I can understand the sentiment. Even though I know I’m done, when I see Lia there’s a little bitty part of me that wants that cute cuddly little baby back. (I think it’s been long enough since Beth was that little that her baby years are starting to fade.)
I managed to put the pool up yesterday. Although the ground wasn’t as level as it looked, so it’s much fuller on one side than the other. I’m a little worried that it’s going to break, but I don’t have time to fix it right now.
Beth even got in it with us last night while it was filling. I was still trying to set it up while the kids were around. Alex wanted in. Then a few minutes later, Beth actually wanted in. No idea if she’ll like it now that it’s full, but I guess we’ll see.
I had the same problem when Leigh was about 6. The urge for another baby passes. Then you start hoping for Grandkids. They are even better than your own kids. You aren’t responsible for overall discipline and when you are tired, they go home.
Win! Win!
I know the feeling. No idea if we’ll have any more kids, so was getting baby clothes ready for a garage sale, crying over them. :(
First off, I’d like to commend my parents on misspelling their eldest child’s name. Way to go, guys. Is there a character limit?
And I would love to have kids someday… Along with a husband, a college degree, and an income that isn’t a joke. So those things first, babies later. But Olya, sometimes I think that won’t happen for me, and it’s terribly depressing. Especially since Shannon’s had kids. Beth really kicked in my maternal instinct, and I hope that I’m lucky enough to have kids in my future.
Thank you for commenting, everybody. Means a lot to me.
Erica, I am not ready to let go yet. But at least I am packing ‘em up… Thank you for the hug, I need one.
Shannon, I’ll keep my stuff for Leigh to look at, too!
Shannon’s parents, I am hoping grandkids are at least 15 years in my future :P
Lara, big hug. I am not ready to sell any of my baby stuff yet, don’t know you got the strength to do it!
Leigh, I hope your dreams come true. And you are going back to school and are in a relationship, so you are actively working to make them a reality, and that’s great.